God has a way of stopping me in my tracks.
Thankfully I’m a little better at listening.
A little.
It’s been a rough few months in ministry. And it’s beginning to wear on me. Much of the stress is surfacing and my ability to fend it off is diminished.
It’s a road I’ve traveled before and thankfully I recognize the signs. But it doesn’t change the fact that it’s wearing on me.
Today God stopped me in my tracks. I had my plans. My schedule… and it was full. Full of all the ministry ‘things’ that must be accomplished so that I shine as a ministry leader. That’s my problem.
Leaving my first appointment of the day, I walk to my car only to find a flat tire.
“I can do this”, trying to convince myself.
I don’t freak out. I know how to change a tire. My dad showed me when I was 16. (I’m almost 36… it’s been a while)
But I don’t think the point of the excercise is to freshen up my tire changing skillz. I think the point is God is asking me to stop and define a few things. Stuff like…
- ministry work vs. ‘busy’ work
- tasks He’s handed me vs. tasks I’ve contrived for myself
- the Holy Spirit prompting me vs. my own concieted, people-pleasing, self-gratifying heart leading me
He has a way of stopping me in my tracks… literally. Because He knows I won’t hear Him any other way.
So, I’m listening now, Lord.
Oh if I could count the time I have been ‘stopped in my tracks.’ If I only I would recognize things BEFORE the ‘flat tire!’
Don’t you love those “now that I’ve got your attention” moments? (grin)
Very good.
Did you get the tire changed?
Great Awareness! I’m glad God stopped you in your tracks literally, so that you coul stop and listen.
BTW~ I can’t stand busy work!
ok, sending a little prayer up for you right now!
I’m sure glad He stopped you, cuz I got more time with you 🙂